Tuesday, 18 March 2008

Gateway or Dead End?

Is Destiny playing me for a fool once again? I was so looking forward to being a costumed tour guide for Oxford Castle after corresponding with someone as per job instructions only to have been ignored with no response to my job application.

Then I thought I'd answer job applications for part-time work in garden centres, only to have letters or phone calls to say the post had been taken... despite never being called for an interview.

I am registered with various teaching organisations and have been told my details are logged in case something comes up... ummm don't think so.

My business I want to start is on hold due to my little investments disappearing under the stock market crisis. Even Sainsbury's don't have any vacancies at the moment.

Meanwhile, like everyone else, my bills have increased and income decreased. So, is destiny telling me to take another path? Is the old creaking gate open for me to find something else to do? And just when I thought I was becoming totally invisible in this society, my daughter rings asking me to help her out after eye laser surgery, while another daughter wants to include me in her wedding plans. Pebble and Banjo don't seem to fight anymore, just when I was about to rename them 'Hiss and Spit'. They have become very affectionate towards me... do they know something I don't?

Tomorrow I help out at the local 'Green Gym'; volunteering my gardening skills for a pruning project. And tomorrow I pursue my enquiries into retraining as a Hypnotherapist and NLP practitioner... is this going to be the path? Or, is it yet another dead end with a half open gate teasing me through before slamming firmly shut in my face?